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emma grace
08 February 2010 @ 03:09 pm
?  
she cried and said,
"it's all in your head.
all of the monsters
and the conclusions
and the beginnings too.
they can't touch you here
because you're a god."

so if that was in my head,
then what is real here?
certainly not my hero,
certainly not my heart,
and certainly not you.
i don't believe in gods.
i don't believe in me.
 
 
emma grace
27 January 2010 @ 02:10 pm
I love Polaroid photos. In enchanted film, a wonder of the world (the 8th). Click, point, shoot, shake.
The image appears; a ghost of what we saw through the lens.
Photographs are all ghosts, but Polaroids seem to know.
Chemical ghosts.
 
 
emma grace
27 January 2010 @ 02:07 pm

We've got no biological clock and I swear we'll never age.
We're vampires and goblins and undead things. We have time for this nonsense. Just little mutations in the gene pool.
I can only pray that we'll evolve into something greater.


 
 
emma grace
27 January 2010 @ 02:05 pm
You're a sly one, Mr. Grinch.
Cheat a beggar out of house and home? Go ahead. I don't give a damn about that material shit.
I live off of the neaon glow of fireflies and among the clouds. I have nothing to fear.
 
 
emma grace
27 January 2010 @ 02:03 pm
My darling, he ain't coming back,
He's going off to sea.
Throw the ball against the wall and back to me.
My brother, oh, he's sick again-
He's taking after me.
Thrown the ball against the wall and back to me.
My sister, well, she's getting old;
She'll soon be turning three.
Throw the ball against the wall and back to me.
My cousin, he escaped today,
He's going to be free.
Throw the ball against the wall and back to me.
I'm going to die inside these walls
For they wouldn't hear my plea.
Throw the ball against the wall and back to me.
 
 
emma grace
14 December 2009 @ 09:49 am
I'm struggling to breathe under the weight of my own thoughts.
If only I could find a way to capture and record, to document and dissect.
They all say that maybe I'm crazy. They say that there comes a time when every battle is lost, when every boxer must throw in the towel and every poet must learn to bend.
Forgive me now, but that is not the kind of poem I wish to write, and not the type of fight I'd want to win.
What would art be if it wasn't ours? Behind every painting, poem, and composition, there is a battlecry. It takes another broken warrior to hear that cry, but even so, it is heard. Take that cry away and you take away all of the meaning, all of the emotion, and everything it stands for.
Everything I am is weighing on these words, so hear me now.
I don't know who I am at this moment, and I don't know who or what I'll be tomorrow. I'll define myself by you and call it a day.
I'm doing my best to form my own opinions, but it's so hard when all of yours sound so damn good.
I lost myself in what everyone else told me I was going to be.
So I guess I'll just disobey, and try again tomorrow.
 
 
emma grace
17 September 2009 @ 01:57 pm
It was his pretty face that drew me in.
He was like a snake, striking with venom and coiling around my throat. He poisoned me with his lies and choked me with tears. He writhed away from me and slipped through my fingers when he heard the dangerous truths that I had to say.
Though I was free of him, his poisons still lingered in my blood and his memory was still burned into my mind.

You were another story.
I didn't see you as beautiful, as beautiful as the cobra I had fallen for. You had your flaws, and not all of them were visible. Sometimes your smile was forced, to cover up the tears that sometimes threatened to spill over. You covered the scars on your arms and tried to smother the not-so-pleasant thoughts that danced in your head.
Your words were magical. You spoke of faraway places and happier worlds that might exist someday, if only we would try. You only spoke of the pain when no lingering ears could hear. Like the hero in the tragedy, you had fought off your own evils. You became more beautiful to me every day, with every word you said. I found a diamond in the rough, and it was you.

You and the cobra weren't so different.
I could never have him, and I could never have you.
All I could do was hope that maybe someday someone might see you the way that I did. The way that I still see you. No, I never wore rose-colored glasses. It was only love.
You are the most beautiful thing I've ever known.
Even when I close my eyes.
 
 
emma grace
16 September 2009 @ 07:34 pm

Whispers in the dark of missing treasures broken hearts and broken things.

Eyes hiding in the shadows, stolen glances, second chances.

Roads not traveled chances not taken, walls put up and names mistaken. Broken people and torn heartstrings are everything.

You have the feelings that aren’t there; you live life on someone else’s dare. You aren’t you, you aren’t him at all. You don’t know where you're going and yet you never cared, you don’t know what you’re missing and it  just isn’t fair but you don’t mind, you never mind at all.

Hidden people in the dead of night and whispers of the final fight echo as they drift against the wind.

Ghosts of past regrets and empty sins haunt you from the outside in. You’re on the edge of breaking, and you tell yourself you’re whole. A whole mess of scrambled, jumbled lies of histories and more demise will plague you through the rest of your days.

You feel the ones that aren’t there you live life paying another stranger’s fare. You aren’t you, you aren’t anyone at all. You don’t know where you and you don’t care, your heart is missing and it’s so unfair, but you mind, you never seemed to mind. You still glance over your shoulder from time to time, you sing in a different rhyme, you sing a tune with a broken beat and melody.
 


 
 
emma grace
16 September 2009 @ 07:33 pm
It was never just music.

It was the notes, the rhythm, the lyrics, the speed. It was everything and nothing. It was the world, all captured into a single song.

Song.

Such a word.

Four letters isn’t enough to capture the things that the melodies can.

A thousand letters still couldn’t create the right word, the worthy word.

You were a drummer. You wanted to beat it all away. Beat away the sadness and anger and memories until they are nothing more than a steady drumbeat.

Turn the things that hurt you into a heartbeat that everyone can hear, everyone can feel. They can hear your pain with every tap and every crash of the symbol. They hear it and they feel it in the fibers of their very being.

It was the roar of the crowd that enthralled you. Thousands of hearts beating along to your rhythm, the rhythm you create with every rattle and hum. It was the roar of the crowd.

Charmer.

It was your charm that captured them and kept them.

“Set him in front of a camera now, tell him to smile, look this way now.”

 It’s all for the press. They want another pretty face. They’re talking magazine covers and interviews, even though your heart is beating along to your calling. The world has different ideas.

Starstruck.

At first you were a starstruck child, not knowing or fearing the strange new world around you. You took it with ease. Red carpets, stages, microphones, photographs. You welcomed it all into your life. It was glitz and glory for so long, it seemed.

Short lived.

It all faded away, the glory and the scars. The people came and went and forgot. You were left with nothing but a set of drums and a million memories. Pick up the drumsticks, take a seat, lose yourself once again.

Rattle the drums, just rattle and hum.


Dedication: Bradie Webb
:D
 
 
emma grace
16 September 2009 @ 07:32 pm

Whispertown, this is a whispertown.

We quiet our voices to speak of the things that cannot be said.

We whisper, our voices drifting off against some belligerent southern wind.

This is a whispertown, our whispertown.

We are the ghosts, the shadows, the empty things. Complete and lacking at the same time.

We are the images that fade over time.

We are the black and white photographs- burned and forgotten.

We are the things that drift away, the forgotten broken hearts and the summer memories that die away with age.

We are the memories that depart with the old ones, the wise and knowing.

We are the things that you can always hear but never see. We’re invisible, completely undetectable. Your racing heartbeat is the only thing that knows we’re here. You can feel us all around you, but your eyes deceive you every time. Your senses become lies, your instincts become everything.

Instinct, the thing they told you was a lie. All along it was the only truth.

So all along, were the truths the lies, and the lies the truths?

We are.

            We were.

                        We will always be.

Welcome to the whispertown.

Whisper, whisper, whisper…give to us your last whispered litany.